Chaotic Weekend, Happy Girl

My heart. It's huge. I have the biggest heart ever. I love and appreciate everything for exactly what it is and to leave anything neglected breaks my heart. By anything, I mean a cat; a kitten actually. The cutest little thing I have ever seen! That also brought chaos to this weekend! Gah! But she's good now. Back home where she belongs. I feel good about that decision. I took her for the weekend thinking nothing of it, hah! Never again. Tried to take her to a shelter this afternoon and they were full.. all of them are full. Poop. So, I decided to take her back to the woods where she was found and she sprinted off like she was right at home. Her name's Ginger, at least to me it is. Cooper is happy that he is the felion of the house again. Yay.

Me and him are awesome. Were gonna have dinner together after I workout. Hopefully we'll stay in tonight and have quality time but we'll see. I haven't talked to him about it yet. But were good, everything's good. I love him more and more everyday. Even though he drives me completely bonkers sometimes!

I talked to my bestie last night. It was fun. I miss her. I can't wait for the next 2 months to be over and she comes home. There's a long list of stuff were gonna do. Walmart and waffle cone Wednesday being the start. I"m going with her family to the beach house this year, even though she can't, I'm glad they still invited me. It will definitely be weird without her there though. I misssss youuuuu woman.

I'm a happy girl right now. Everything's gooood. Although I do need to stop procrastinating and get my school stuff done. Tomorrow. End of story.
Until next time, love, peace, and chicken grease.

Life's a beach.

Why do things go wrong to the best people? Why does it happen all the time? Why do people get fired from their job of 2 weeks for a stupid reason because "they were too slow"? Why did you hire in the first place then, dumbass? Why, why, WHY? Ugh. Life's a beach.

Well, as for me, I have to work in 30 minutes.. Usually I would have gone in earlier but now that I have 5 days instead of 3, I have to go in later so I don't get overtime. Yet... my boyfriend gets at least 10 hours a week overtime. Uh, what? Not fair. I want overtime. Life's a beach.

I work nights and when I first started the job, I went to bed at like 5am and woke up at like 2pm.. But lately i haven't been able to go to bed until like 7 or 8am and won't get up until like 4pm.. the other day, I didn't get up until 5PM! Wow. I'm weirddd. Or maybe I'm just having trouble adjusting to my new schedule. Who knows. Life's a beach.

So, I forgot what my friends look like.. They work days, I work nights. Gah. I miss them. My friend, Tabby, is calling me at like 11 in the morning so we can hang out. Earlyyy. But she's worth iiit. I guess I'm getting like 5 hours of sleep tonight, can anyone say Red Bull? Desperate pleasures call for desperate measures. Life's a beach.

Until next time, love, peace, and chicken grease. :)

The Perfect Date.

Well. It's been an interesting couple of days to say the least...
An update:
Work- I have a long week and a short week now. The long is 5 days, the short, 4.
School- I'm tryin to start in the fall.. hopefully it ain't too late.
Money- I went to the bank and got a book to fill out to see "where my money
goes" anddd I'm in better shape than I thought. :)
Friends- What would I do without them? Seriously. <3
Boyfriend- We got our problems but overall were good. :)


I have to take a minute and tell whoever came across this about my absolutely amazing day. Me and the boy got into a big fight and talked about it, made up, and decided we needed a getaway. So, we went to the beach at 4 in the morning and watched the sunrise, :) It was the best. We had Coronas, limes, music, the stars at first, a blanket, and each other. It was awesome. By 8'o clock, I was exhausted so we called out friends that live over there and got some shut eye. When we woke up, we went bar hoping at the beach and out to eat and met the coolest English lady ever and she bought us a round a drinks. :) And then we came home.
I had a good time. Hopefully the problems won't keep on...
We don't get to spend a lot of time together because of work and it creates problems. I'm not a fan of them. At all. It makes me sad and lonely but I know he loves me and I love him right back.

Now, TGIF. All I am doing is working and laying out... I may make time to clean the house a bit.. who really knowwwss. I do know I am havin' a mellow weekend though... and.. I.can.not.wait.

Until next time, love, peace, and chicken grease.<3

Today was a fairytale

"... you were the prince, I was the damsel in distress, today was a fairytale.."

I neverrr get to see him anymore and it sucks. His new job works him everyday except for his day off... when I work. -.- We can't even have a date night.. when it's just us because we both get home so late and our schedules are so opposite.
I guess I can't complaint too much though because at least we both have jobs and the distance is good for us so we don't strangle each other, hahaha.
I love him. He's the best friend I ever had. Even though we have not a lot in common, somehow we managed the last 15 months. Overall, the fights and arguments have all been made up by the goods, the dates and just being with him and making plans for life.

I'm happy. :)

I had a good Easter with my family. I made a huge dinner and it was soooo good. :)
Thenn, I got to spend a couple hours with him tonight, I liked it a lot.

Now, it's 4 in the morning and I'm watching Teen Mom re-runs. I should go to bed, however, because I have to get up earlyyy.. I mean like 11am. Haha. I'm goin to the beach with one of my best friends. I can't waittt...

... but I can't sleep either. Ahhh.

Well, back to Teen Mom until I feel like goin to bed!
Love, peace, and chicken grease.<3

Venting Session.

Probably will be the first of many. See, I write to get my most frustrated feelings out. And right now, I'm fucking frustrated...

(I just typed so much here and had to delete it was so mean)
How about a re-do considering this is all over the internet.

I don't understand how you can do so much for a person yet they still complain. What the hell can I do to make you happy? I mean I already do so much that you don't notice and yet you still complain! I don't get it. What do you want? All I freaking did was everything you can ask for in a person like me, yet you're not happy.

Maybe I should just stop.
Then maybe they'll notice.



Update on the Life of Me:
I have an Easter dinner to cook that sounds delicious.
Work sucked.
I miss my best friend.
I want out of this depressing city.

1 out of 4... Awesome.

Happy Easter.
I hope yours is as good as I plan mine to be.
<3

The Fallout of All Fallouts

It's a strange time in life. You feel relieved to get it out, yet you feel weird. Like, things are changed, relationships- better or worse, traditions, and walls are put up. All these years of trying to build a relationship, trying to make her accept me, trying to disregard the things she says to me and how she treats us. And then... I finally gave up, I finally stood up for myself and make her feel the way she's made me feel all these years... and she still doesn't get it, so it seems.
The day after is the weirdest. You don't know what to expect or what's going to happen and who all will be affected. All you know is you're scared for what will happen and you think the worst. Will it get better? Will it get worse? Will we ever speak again? We will talk about it?
I am full of questions and confusion right now and I have a headache and my ear feels like it will pop it hurt so bad.
Awesome.

Other than that, I had a wonderful time with my best friends family yesterday and I cannot wait until my best friend comes home from her trip.

I can't wait to move too.

Until next time, love, peace, and chicken grease.

Well, this is embarrassing.

Hahahaha, that is what Firefox said when it couldn't retrieve our last saved tabs, along with an apology. Hahaha;
With that said, I have a story! A "Well, this is embarrassing." story.
So, I had a big basket of laundry that goes up to my hip and 3 big bags of trash to carry down two flights of stairs; Dear Lord: Please help me. I have the two biggest bags of trash, one in each hand, and there really heavy so I'm not trying to think about it and I'm in my own little world and I get halfway down the second flight and I hear "floooosh" or however you spell it. Apparently, the heaviest bag was dragging a bit and I didn't realize. Awesome. And to add on this embarrassment: It was the one with the cat litter and tampons. Awesomeee! -.-
Then the weird guy that lives across the hall with his 2 obnoxious kids come down and look at me awkwardly and the one said, "Hey! My mama has those exact cowboy boots!" Really?! Come the eff on. Of course, I had to run up the stairs twice, to get a broom, dustpan, and another trash bag.
Gah!

But after it all happened, it was funny. Ain't that what makes life good. The funny and embarrassing stuff. It makes my day. :)

Other than that, this week has been pretty mellow. My friend Katie, has me doing workouts from hell, twice a week but I feel great. I went and saw my parents and took them out to dinner to my boyfriend's new job. We had a good time.

Sometimes, I miss home, where I grew up. There's really nothin' like it. I miss goin into the woods and raisin' hell with my little brother and makin' cookies with Mama and the hundreds of humongous bonfires in the backyard with Daddy that she always had a coronary with. It always nice to visit and add another of the many memories of the place that built me.

"I know they say you can’t go home again
I just had to come back one last time;

I thought if I could touch this place or feel it
This brokenness inside me might start healing
Out here it’s like I’m someone else
I thought that maybe I could find myself;

You leave home and you move on and you do the best you can
I got lost in this old world and forgot who I am"
-Miranda Lambert